Carol Lynn Stevenson Grellas

Elegy to My Mother

I have long felt your shadowed ghostly light
I have once seen your face inside a cloud.
I have out-slept the hours awaiting night
I have pretended death is not allowed.

I have once seen your face inside a cloud
while gazing through the window in my room.
I have pretended death is not allowed,
beginnings become endings much too soon.

While gazing through the window in my room
one breath of wind disrupts the fabric’s veil.
Beginnings become endings much too soon.
Awakened to your voice however frail

one breath of wind disrupts the fabric’s veil.
I shudder at the whisper of my name
awakened to your voice however frail.
Your dying done, now nothing is the same—

but maybe you’re the skylark in my dreams.
I have out-slept the hours awaiting night.
A fluttering in dark can sound like wings
I have long felt your shadowed ghostly light.

At 5:19 in the Morning

—For Sabrina

My daughter comes to me in sleep, her hair
a wisp of tendril feathered through the air
against my face, outside a trickling glare

of daylight seeping through the curtain's hue
creates a blurry sunbeam spilling through
uniting space where shadows dance from two

small sparrows perched together on a rung
suspended from the stairwell where I've hung
a feeder in the garden, veiled among

gardenias rising towards the sun, I gaze
at her with gratitude and think of days
when I was young, thankful for the ways

I've learned to carry hope inside my heart
when loss became an overwhelming part
of life. I pray that death is just the start

of something more that lives beyond in bliss—
assuming life's as fleeting as a kiss
comparing Heaven's reverie to this

yet sweeter than the scent gardenias left
behind my mother's ear where all she blessed
with fragrance lingers here. As if obsessed

my daughter gestures to the window's light
and says, I dreamed I was with God last night
just as the sparrows turn and take to flight.


Carol Lynn Stevenson Grellas is a recent graduate of Vermont College of Fine Arts, MFA in Writing program. She is an eleven-time Pushcart Prize nominee and a seven-time Best of the Net nominee. In 2012 she won the Red Ochre Chapbook Contest, with her manuscript, Before I Go to Sleep. In 2018 her book In the Making of Goodbyes was nominated for The CLMP Firecracker Award in Poetry, and her poem "A Mall in California" took 2nd place for the Jack Kerouac Poetry Prize. In 2019 her chapbook An Ode to Hope in the Midst of Pandemonium was a finalist in the Eric Hoffer Book Awards and Epitaph for the Beloved was nominated for The Northern California Book Award. Her latest collection of poems Alice in Ruby Slippers, was short-listed for the 2021 Eric Hoffer Grand Prize and awarded honorable mention in the Poetry. She has served as the Editor-in-Chief for the Orchards Poetry Journal and Tule Review. According to family lore, she is a direct descendant of Robert Louis Stevenson.


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The Poetry by the Sea Conference ran successfully this year from May 24-27, and is scheduled next year from May 23-26.

Terri Witek: Kim Bridgford was one of the very first to support my work as a collaborator with visual artist Cyriaco Lopes and to honor my way forward as a teacher and practitioner of visual poetics; I’m therefore especially touched that Anna Evans has asked me back as featured artist in the new summer edition of Mezzo Cammin.

The three groups of work represented here are all from longer series of what I call citizen poetics: phone photos dropped into social media feeds without comment: just something washing by in the day’s various streams. To me, it’s important politically that these are all quick, low res images: they are what any soul with a phone might ‘catch' in the same way we monetarily grasp at what flicks past between ads and news from friends in the corporatate-owned scrolls we now move through.

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