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Janice Soderling


Looking with Both Eyes Shut

She is standing in the bedroom.
Freedom
only a sound, like twelve-gauge,
college,

Or dogface. She holds a child.
Old
before her time. Just turned twenty.
Empty
except for the kicking in her belly.
Melancholy
is one close friend, and sorrow
is the other.
He holds the shotgun steady.
Oddly
she does not care, or cry, or call.
The recoil
or the sound bouncing off the wall,
now full
of buckshot, has scared him,
scarred her
where no eye sees.
Help her. Please!


Family Reunion

This is the place hurt happened.
I am back now
saying oh
and

everyone is extraordinarily kind.
Although
I do not say Where were you
when I was half out of my mind,

bruised and poking a dry breast
into the mouth
of that poor hungry infant to soothe
her. Her sister, one year older, was blest

to eat daily at the table of kind neighbors.
Well,
It was a close approximation of hell.

No, instead I admire the grape arbor

and the old orchard and say out loud, I remember when
these apple trees gave bushels.

It's useless,
even discourteous, to complain.

Like these stunted trees, they are all dead or dying anyway,
those who could have, but didn't interfere.
I say, Look here,
the ground is covered with fall fruit even today

and blood is thicker than water
. My cousins sagely nod.
It is true. The ground is covered with fall fruit, rotting.

































AUTHOR BIO

Janice D. Soderling is a previous contributor to Mezzo Cammin. She is the author of four chapbooks, one in Swedish and three in English. Recent translations of Folke Isaksson's poetry were published by Better than Starbucks and several poems poems recently appeared in New Verse News.

POETRY CONTRIBUTORS

Terese Coe
Mary DeCoste
Julia Griffin
Kathryn Jacobs
Lucy Rose Mihajlich
Sally Nacker
Theresa Rodriguez
Jane Satterfield (Featured Poet)
Leslie Schultz
Janice Soderling

NEWS

The most recent addition to The Mezzo Cammin Women Poets Timeline is Aemilia Lanyer by Maryann Corbett.

Eileen Kinch is the recipient of the 2020 Mezzo Cammin Scholarship to the Poetry by the Sea conference.

FEATURED ARTIST
After my mother died in December, 2014, I and my sister-in-law cleaned out the family home, one day a week for seven months. On the last visit, we found my childhood art. As my folks were packrats, I was not surprised. I didn’t remember that I had made maps from ages 9-11 as subjects for social studies classes, but I recalled loving geography and history. (Coincidentally, for the last 25 years, most of my art has involved cartography.) These map drawings were in organized folders with other assignments inside a rusty filing cabinet lying on its side under the eaves of the dark, unlit attic.

Some months after gathering them up, I gingerly brought them out to study. There was much I recognized about myself: a compulsive attention to detail; fascination with strange, inexplicable images; and experiments with different kinds of representation. Back then, I appropriated meticulously from books, as I still do today from the Internet. This led to a visual dialogue between my childhood and adulthood.

I began to incorporate these schoolroom exercises into paintings. At first, the correspondences were obvious – both the new, painted ground maps and the old, collaged drawings represented New York and New Jersey, for instance. But then, I moved further afield, as my childhood charts covered the globe. I chose antique maps that are geographically incorrect to contemporary eyes for my backgrounds, as I had done on a much smaller scale in a 1998-1999 series of frescoes, Knowledge. Their “wrongness” gave them a childish quality that complemented my elementary school hand.

From our different stages of life, the young girl and the adult woman began to shift back and forth within the pictorial space. I’d also retrieved my childhood doll collection, and some of those toys found their way into the work, parading along shallow stage-like platforms.

I then began to appropriate my other (non-map) childhood drawings, originally book reports or science assignments. Sometimes I arranged them in a row across the top or bottom of the painting, like the predellas in Renaissance art, stories within stories.

I copied tiny animals and sea creatures from my girlhood studies onto the dominant maps; they are visible to the viewer if he/she moves up close. Later, I started to copy entire childhood drawings - which were by then attached to the paintings - directly onto smaller canvases, creating enclosed, subsidiary works excerpted and reinterpreted from the first series. Paint did not capture the nubby, grainy look of the sources, so I bought children’s art supplies – crayons, chalk, cray-pas - and invented for myself a hybrid art-making process.

The worldview of my naïve public school pictures is that of early 1950s America – cowboys at their bonfires in the wide-open west; factories and smokestacks in small town settings; Eskimo girls and Alpine girls and Brazilian girls in their native costumes. The mindset is further away from me today than the places were then. These false scenarios have unraveled for many in my generation, although not everywhere nor for all Americans. And that’s why my conventional grammar school innocence felt weirdly relevant - within our polarized society, where so many people hold onto fantasies about recovering an imaginary past.

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